i’m feeling a lot of emotional pain today…
but it’s laced with really happy and nostalgic and beautiful things, too. not just all about jordan. i miss jordan, but everything is changing, and grasping on to the wonderful beautiful and heart-wrenching pain of it all is immensely intense. I don’t have my best friend anymore…I told my mom on the phone that I just wanted to go back to my childhood. Where I could be a kid again, be friends with Jordan again, and not have to figure out who I want to be. She told me not to try so hard to figure it out, and that at least I was able to get to know Jordan. She also told me that the most sensitive people always have it the hardest. Jordan was one of the most sensitive people I knew. He would never hurt a fly, and he was friends with everyone. I miss him.
