February 2010
i'm starting to get nervous about the soc of sex...
…my armpits are getting sweaty :[
i'm having a huge craving to start a new creative...
…but i don’t know what i want to do. must start brainstorming now…a painting? a piece of writing? piece of jewelry? a website? a zine? something cooked/baked? try something new? uh-hmmmmmm.
January 2010
yes.
I can’t confront you, I never could do… That which might hurt you. Try and be cool.
sun square pluto today @ noon
Letting go
Today you may have to encounter and even oppose powerful pressures and forces exerted upon you, both from without and from within. The way you live and exert your energies will be tested today, perhaps forcing you to make radical changes in the areas of your life that you find are not working very well. The best way to use this influence is to let go of old patterns of behavior that...
jewelry-making and t&s pandora station...
…was just what the doctor ordered last night. i feel SO much better. i really needed some relaxing me-time, aaaand, AH, the t&s station is SO fucking amazing. it’s like i can feel my soul thumping to the rhythm of the songs…
props bam
for sticking up to those loud bitches :D
it makes me happy. hehe
“Nothing is ever really lost, or can be lost,
No birth, identity, form—no...”
– Walt Whitman
watching the notebook right now...
…some of it, particularly parts of waiting for something that may never happen and the seeing people you love with someone else, just innately breaks my heart.
“Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I...”
– Walt Whitman, Song of Myself (one of my favorite quotes of all time)
“And I’m lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep...”
– MIssy Higgins, Wrong Girl
i'm living in my own fantasy world...
..and in reality, i am so selling myself short.
i feel like shit right now, i’m not happy. i’m basing my happiness on what other people think of me and it’s not doing me any good.
i’m SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. i don’t know what to do with myself right now….i can’t concentrate.
“Stuck between the depths of my fears and the peaks of my pride”
– Amos Lee (via -lisamarie)
had a good cry over love.
now i’m definitely ready for bedtime. goodnight.
i'm feeling better about my passions freak-out...
…i do and experience a lot of things, and if something amazing is going to be added to my already awesomely full life, i won’t miss it.
wow, i suppose...
…i am kinda scared of getting hurt again.
just rented "imagine me & you"
…perfect movie for a time like this.